Distinctly missing C— today, realized he exists mainly in my mind.
That’s where he resides most of the time, not in my presence, not anywhere near me.
He’s like a mirage.
Shimmering, taunting, disappearing.
Reflecting more of me and my reaction to him than anything else.
The mere thought of him can buoy my most mundane moment, like a private joke.
But not today.